A year ago my mentor sent me an email about me being inside of box- not showing the world who I am, what my talents are and the gift that God has given me. Eventually I learned how to come out of my box while living in the UK and I was able to impact a few lives while doing so. Living inside the box was safe, no one knew me, no one expected anything of me, I could be free well at least that was the illusion I was selling to myself. In contrast, living outside of the box created a passion, it made me feel valuable, it showed me my purpose in this world and that was real freedom - knowing everyday that I can impact the world just by being who I was meant to be, created a feeling of "flying" in my soul. I actually love being outside of the box although I am more vulnerable there but I think venerability is the one thing that allows people to connect with you. It's the one thing that allows people to feel comfortable around you(i.e. like a form of humility) so don't ...
Both of my mentors has been grilling me for my attitude lately and yes I am confessing that I was trying to force a lot of things to happen. I got worried, I allowed the fear of the future to get me completely out of my grove. I remember I would wake up hungry, ready to take on the challenges of the day and lately I've had mornings, where I didn't want to even face the reality of what my life was. Yes, somewhere I allowed society to contaminate my mind with thoughts of being an iconic success story one day. I wanted it all and I wanted it now and this is what was making my mentors uncomfortable about me. I lost the appreciation of the little things while focusing on the big picture and I cried when I realize how far I feel off from the person I was when I first started this journey. I am back into my "FLOW" mood, just allowing things to happen and what doesn't happen wasn't meant to be. I look back at last year around this time and the odds I was up agains...
One of the areas I am an activist for is the banning of exams that account for a large portion of a student grade. I never liked exams and still don't, though, I have never failed one before and I am grateful to God for that I still do not stand for examinations. It seems ridiculous to me to test someone's intelligence by one day of examination. It is a disadvantage to people who have memory problems, and, a huge advantage for people who remember things well or who have photographic memory. I just think it isn't fair and honestly, anything that capitalist praises I am skeptical of. Since capitalism is a system that thrives on competition then it's only right to raise children to be competitors. This is the number one reason why people are growing further and further away for each other, because, we always feel a need to compete with each other and when we are losing we feel we are not good enough, so we distance oursleves. And guess what; this is all related to th...
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