Hiding A Sacred Gift

At one point in my life, I thought my intellect was some sort of curse. I really didn't like the fact that I was so smart, especially me being a guy and all. Being a smart black man just didn't seem cool, credit this way of thinking to white supremacy. I suppressed my real intellect all the time, for 21 years of my life that is. Yes for 21 years I told myself that I didn't want the world to see me for who I was. I was a super intelligent guy who over came every childhood obstacle  using psychological tactics. *lol* I laugh now because I actually know the word for it. Advance reverse psychology, behaviour anticipation and emotional intelligence came natural to me. For 3 years in elementary school I was bullied, I overcame that by feeding the guys who picked on me. I wouldn't do it in a desperate way either. I would be like, "I'm not hungry today, you guys can have that", bare in mind I was chubby at that age. You know how the saying goes, food is the way to a man's stomach, well I mastered that at age 9. Through feeding those boys they began noticing I was not the person they thought I was, and believe it or not, me and those boys went on to become the best of childhood friends with numerous of adventures :-), I smile thinking about it. Life right ? A box of chocolates indeed( Forrest Gump, watch that movie :-) )) 

So what made me come out of my shell completely? There was three events that I won't speak on until my TV interview(speak it into existence haha) but the person who gave me confidence to show off my intellect was Lupe Fiasco. I always knew Lupe but, was never a fan, I thought he was this skating boarding geek, like I said earlier I didn't want to be a geek, ...moving on. So this song called "Show goes on" by Lupe gets locked in my head,  I bootlegged his album(like you never steal before, don't judge -_-), watched youtube interviews and was changed. I was like waitttt!!!!, this dude is so me, the way he sees the world I see it that way to. I then realised how successful he became being true to himself and not fitting into gangsta hip hop; being smart and using big words was actually cool. Lol well from then lets just say I didn't feel no way about hiding my intellect and being called a KNOW-IT-ALL by my boys when I went from Patrick from spongebob to the Black Jimmy Neutron REAL QUICK !!( That's copyrighted , I do accept cheques, thank you very much).

So yeah that's my confession, I've expanded so much these last couple of years that I actually can challenge Lupe to a debate now, amazing , when you surpass or equalise with people who showed you the way. Well yeah, I love reading, intellectual debates once it's fair and unbias, nature, human behaviour and God. Christ is real!!!

See yaa,
Leo